Notes about my work, projects, training, and life.
I’ve lived enough different lives that sometimes even I have to stop and look back at all of it.
Law enforcement. Corrections. Addiction. Recovery. Running. Writing. Building software. Losing things. Starting over.
None of those chapters tells the whole story.
They are all pieces of the same life.
Day 2 of power washing, AKA another therapy session.
There’s something about blasting years of grime off concrete that feels way more satisfying than it probably should.
I believe I’m about to have a breakthrough.
Or a crisis.
Honestly, could go either way.
Sometimes discipline means refusing to stay trapped in the version of yourself that got you here.
You are allowed to outgrow old habits, old roles, old expectations, even old definitions of who you are.
Growth requires letting go.
You do not have to keep proving who you used to be.
Be new again.
Been fighting with a major project all morning while ChatGPT Work moves like it’s dragging an anchor.
Eventually, I had to walk away and get a solid 3.1-mile run in before I Hulk-smashed something.
Came back with a clearer head.
ChatGPT Work is still slow as molasses.
At least one of us picked up the pace.
I've got two ChatGPT Work chats running Astra at Max, and both are moving at a damn crawl today. OpenAI is reporting degraded Work performance, even though the incident specifically mentions Sol.
I don't expect complex work to finish instantly. But when I'm using these tools to build real projects, I need to know whether they're working or stuck.
Sitting around guessing is frustrating as hell.
There is something weirdly therapeutic about power washing.
Point the wand at something filthy, watch the grime disappear one strip at a time, and suddenly the world feels pretty damn simple.
Immediate results. Very satisfying.
Drift does not have to become a crisis.
A missed routine, a weaker decision, or a few days off course can be corrected without panic.
The answer is not fear.
It is awareness, honesty, and early action.
Notice the drift. Correct it. Return to the standard.
Do not turn a small deviation into a new identity.
https://jimlunsford.com/recovery-standard-manage-drift-without-fear/
A technical pass does not automatically mean the work is done.
Tests can pass. CI can be green. The package can verify cleanly.
Then a real person uses it and finds the thing automation missed.
That final human acceptance matters because software is not built for test suites.
It is built to be used.
Good start to a day off.
Coffee in hand. Cat beside me. Laptop open.
There’s yard work waiting for me later, but right now I’m not in any hurry to get there.
Just enjoying a little quiet before the rest of the day starts asking for my attention.
Came home, went to our favorite Mexican restaurant, and absolutely smashed a burrito.
Then I played a little Pokémon XD: Gale of Darkness and now I'm calling it a night.
Not every evening needs to be productive.
Sometimes burritos and Pokémon are enough.
