Notes about my work, projects, training, and life.
You keep waiting for the moment when you finally feel ready.
More confident. More certain. Less afraid.
That moment may never come.
Readiness is often something you build after you start, not something you receive before you move.
Stop waiting for the feeling.
Take the first step and let action create the confidence.
I have Bonumark Stream work ready to go, Only Empowerment ready to go, and Legend of the Green Dragon waiting in the corner.
What I do not have is ChatGPT usage.
At this point I’m considering standing at an intersection with a cardboard sign:
WILL WORK FOR CREDITS
Please help. I have projects to overbuild.
I’ve been rebuilding ltdcsserver.com, one of the last pieces I still have from L.T.D. Computer Services, the computer repair business I lost during active addiction.
I’m not trying to recreate the old business. I’m preserving the history, the surviving logos, the domain, and the part of my technical life that existed long before my current projects.
Some builds are about moving forward. Some are about making sure the past does not disappear.
People in my house have been passing around a stomach bug for about a week.
This morning, the little bastard finally got ahold of me.
Yes, Mr. Take Your Supplements, Eat Right, and Train Hard gets sick too.
Thankfully, I’m not getting hit nearly as hard as some of the rest of the family did.
I’ll take that win.
Kelly, my wife, has known almost every version of me.
The reckless kid. The addict. The husband who fell apart. The man rebuilding. The cop. The runner. The writer. The builder.
She has seen me become a lot of different things.
And somehow, after all these years, we are still becoming.
A standard only works when it becomes yours.
Not your coach’s. Not your partner’s. Not something you follow because someone is watching.
Eventually, discipline has to become self-directed.
Know what you stand for. Know what you refuse to compromise. Then live it whether anyone notices or not.
Own your standard.
https://jimlunsford.com/discipline-dispatch-own-your-standard/
Today’s work on Legend of the Green Dragon: Resurrection has been about certification, not new features.
I’m taking the bundled modules one by one and proving their real behavior through onboarding, combat, persistence, permissions, and failure cases.
Old code does not become trustworthy because it still runs. It has to prove it.
Stepped away from the laptop and got outside for a 45-minute run, then knocked out the yard work.
It’s in the 70s today, and the weather is damn near perfect for being outside.
After four straight 12-hour shifts at the jail, spending some time on the road and in the yard was exactly how I wanted to use part of my first day off.
You can say recovery matters and still live in ways that pull you away from it.
Alignment is the test.
Do your routines, relationships, choices, and priorities support the person you say you are becoming?
If not, something has to change.
Recovery gets stronger when your daily life matches your stated standards.
This is a map of every run I’ve recorded in Columbus.
4,112.9 miles down so far.
Looking at all those roads covered is pretty damn cool.
Hopefully there are a whole lot more miles still ahead.
